the pen that can change the world

It's strange for me to admit to myself that education is the only aspect of my life that I seem to be successful in it. All what I can do at this stage of my life is to get educated. And that's what I can do very well. Education was the way God Has saved me through. I was a miserable highschool -student who couldn't be any worse in Mathmatics than I was. I had no hope of entry to college. I was going to stay at home and propably my parent_I wouldn't say parent(s)for my mom has always charished my presence_ would have get red of me and let me get married; because sometimes in our community that what happenes for uneducated girls. A bless from Allah that saved my soul and I was accepted at my university, but not so easily. College didn't believe in me. It fought for its right to choose only the girls it thought good enough. I wasn't considered good enough. However, I was saved and I got the chance to prove to them that I can be one brilliant student that they would all wish if they didn't rush in their descigion back then.

So why it is important to me that I get educated? Why do I have to be accepted? Why do I have to succeed? Education is the only way for me to be proud. To feel that I am something. I am someone. I am the one that can be active in the society and perhaps the world. In the course of two years, I have acheived so many things that I have always dreamt of. I have accomplished things that I could never been able to do if I was sitting at home.

I was no one. I made my own name, and I am trying to build my future through this path. I'm planning on finishing college with high degrees, and be the man of the family that my family never had. Our society does not believe in me. Could our society though help me build my bright future? So if the boys were preferred over girls; then how come girls are the ones who support their families all the time

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they pretend that men are the ones that take good care of the society; but why then we never see them supporting us? _ Us meaning the society as a whole _ So why till this day we see fathers favoring their sons to go abroad and study ? do they really study

My Mom though believes in me. She has put all her efforts on me so I can be the citizen my society would be proud of . I took all that strength and carried it along with me; so I would never give up on makig myself clear. I will keep fighting till my father eventually believes that only his girls can save his firm, and so for the other girls in my society

So even if I can never study abroad, nor can I ever be someone to my father's eyes: I'll continue on to prove myself and that I am an important being. Education is really important for girls and we should give it attention. Hopefully this attitude towards educating girls will chaneg, through someone's pen

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Three NOSTALGIC years

ever since I have graduated from highschool, this feeling has always been with me wherever I went and whenever. My whole life took another turn since highschool. Nothing is really the same; but not necesserily in a bad way. It's quite wierd, but when I feel that way I feel as if I'm fifty years old. I no longer feel that I'm 19 or 20, at least not from within. It's like I have died after my graduation and ever since then my spirit is flowing to see what happened for 3 years after my death! I know It's a bit hard to explaine; but this is what's actually happenning to me. They say_or in other words_ Try to make the good out of the bad, and take advantage of every single thing you have.

So what do I have? I actually have it all_lucky me_ but I don't seem to be enjoying it; because my spirit is flowing as I've said before. I can only wish that time would slow down a bit; so I can figure out things better and know how to enjoy life. I truely feel overwhelmed by the blessings of God. I know that I should be considered one of the luckiests. However, my own interpretation of Luck is to know how to realize and understand the blessings one self has

You are lucky if you can enjoy what you have. Why it's either to feel nostalgic or to wonder about the future? why can't we enjoy our present. I think if I can stop thinking about the future and stop having those nostalgic nights; I'd be more happy about my present. If we know that the past is a past, and the future is unpredictable; then we might have bigger chances in figuring out our happiness. .

I fly here and there, my spirit is in a constant hunger to return to its original home. While I do that, I try to live the best way I can. There has to be a worthy reason for our presence. We don't actually live and then die for no true reasons. For whatever reason is that, I'll learn how to live my life day by day. I'll do good things. I'll make the people who care for me happy. I'll make a point. I'll do whatever it takes to let my past rest in peace and try to live my present