Mind rushes before school starts

It's about time to go back to school! next Sat is propably going to be my fisrt day in my sixth semester..English Literature major. So many things I'm thinking about, so many things I wanna do, so many things I have to do before this Sat, and so many ruined things I wanna fix. For the ruined things that I wanna repair and fix: is my relationships with some of my professors and others. Last semester I wasn't slowing down I guess..and I made a couple of mistakes. I didn't apperciate the goodness of a professor of mine..I respected her from within but never in action. Usually when two people differs in style, the next thing happens is that they start to misunderstand each other. For what happened between me and my professor_that I believe now is the best teacher in the department_ I acted myself and she didn't apperciate having a person like me in her class..I speak my mind POLITLY about the material and never give up on making people understand my point! I just wanted to have the freedom to speak my mind and she wanted a quiet student I guess. This summer I had the flashbacks and I kept remembering her treating me very well even though she didn't like my attitude. That's in itself is a rare trate to see in one's personality.You are really a nice person from inside if you treat everyone farely even with difference in attitudes and personalities among people. I can now understand her and I would like to shade all the bad stuff she propably was thinking of me. This ruined relationship I would love to repair and fix once this semester begins. Other than that, nothing in my mind is serious..just that I have sooooo many things I wanna do before next Sat!

I'm planning on visiting my dentist for regular check..I keep planning for that and it never happens hehehe ! also I'd like to go to the salon and hopefully it'll turn out to be ok...Yah that and this.. and my mind is rushing before school

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never leave ruined stuff in your life behind you

Children's power

Kids are so amazing..they are little creatures with a Gold Memory. Don't be surprised but they understand situations in life more than grown-up people. They can read people's minds. They have a unique power that once they get older they simlpy lose it, this power make them able to sense people..able to tell wether that person is good inside or bad. You may wonder how would I know stuff like that? I'm no longer a child..I know that! and I didn't read sychological books; but I used to be a child once. I've been there and I still strongly remember-if not all- almost all of the things that happened to me when I was a child. I remember good stuff and bad stuff_gratefull to Allah there weren't many_ and I remember good people I met during my childhood..and most of them aren't with me today. I remember what a child would love most, what would miss most, what would hate most, what would REMEMBER most. Simple they are..in their wishes and interests. Pure they are.. almost angels..angels who recognize angels. When I was an angel, I was blessed enough to recognize an angelic adult, who happened to be my Uncle's friend. I was five or 6, didn't quite understand my father's apsense; and though I couldn't care less, I was simple. So, I guess the interence of that angelic person into my life was a big gift from Allah, that would make it all up for me..and I just automatically saved him as my only precious memory from the past. He didn't do great stuff to me, he was Simply doing simple stuff to a simple creature. Hanging with me at the funfair,Softly holding my little hands, Surprising me on each visit with a candy, or driving me to the ice-cream store. Regular adults wouldn't get it, get that children only recieve simple stuff with worm touch. So now as I became an adult., I remeber those good memories that One Person caused it to me. It's just amazing how a simple thing can lead on big memories that will go on with you for the rest of your life! As I remeber him, I pray for his soul to rest in peace. I pray for him each time I have those flashbacks. Let's just appreciate children a bit more. Let's do good stuff to them with keeping it simple. Just remember that they are simple, they don't demand anything! they can be happy with only dedicating a few hours a week to play with them, a few moments a day to tell them how loved they are. Just put yourselves in their shoes and ask yourselves what would you like to have if you are a child back again? For those good people that left me in this world..I will always keep you in my heart and mind. I'll always have those nights where I wake up from sleeping and think about you and how I miss you now. I'll always pray Allah to gather me with you again in Heaven in sha Allah..and we'll reunite

The other day I had a heated discussion between me and my sister. I was telling her about whom I wish to marry..and I've explained that I don't wish a rich guy or a handsome one_though I don't mind one hehehe ^_^ _ but what I wish for my future husband is to be educated with a profound job; as a college professor or a dentist. I just flappergaste over those smart guys!! and my sister then argued me asking: " so you like old men ?!" and I was disappointed of my sister's question; coz I really don't think that a person have to be old so he/she can be smart !! " I don't mind older men...but that's not my point anyway! I said I like smart guys" then she stated that to have a partner who's that highly educated and seems to be class..then you should improve yourself so you both be equal. I didn't understand so I asked what does she mean? then she explained that I have to deserve someone like him. To tell you the truth, I never knew my sister's point of view about me..I thought that everyone in my family admires me coz I'm really proud of myself since I'm excellent at college and that I can speak English and I feel that I'm not like some of the girls who are only interested in the shallow stuff. I counted to her every single thing about me that I believe make me qualified to be the wife of HIM, but she was still arguing me that I'm not ready enough to have a smart guy and that I'm not highly educated yet. I know that we don't get everything we wish, and I know I might marry someone who's absolutely the opposite of my dream guy..but there is a saying that in other words means: you are big if you wish big :) So at the end, our discussion went on a dead end but it did help me alot to understand that you have to work hard on yourself and never say that I'm good already. I wish you people to be ambitious as much as you can and never give up your dreams at the same time